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Friday, 1 January 2016

A Change


Have you ever noticed how much people change? 

Boys that I once loved become unrecognisable, friendships that I thought would last forever slowly drifting apart.

I've changed, more than I can possibly comprehend over the past two years, for better and for worse.

I have become even more sensitive, with new pains, new triggers, new problems to tackle. But on the other hand I have become more passionate, more determined, more focused on improving my mental health and the wellbeing of those around me.

I have become braver and more terrified in equal measures. The former always wins, even when I think it won't. Each time I face my fears I grow a little more, a testament to what I can achieve.

But it has meant saying goodbye. Goodbye to old versions of me, shedding the skin of them as I embrace the mould underneath. Saying goodbye to people when that meant ripping out my heart, and maybe not saying goodbye when I silently was grateful for their departure. 

At New Year we all look towards change, the deliberate kind; the kind that involves better health and wardrobes, new haircuts and new 'me's. But change isn't always deliberate, sometimes it happens naturally and that's usually when you look back and realise it's the most dramatic.

I used to hate change, I saw it as unsettling and frightening. Now I'm coming to embrace it, especially organic change, as it seems an inevitable fact of life. So here’s to growing into the people that we become, embracing ourselves and others as we develop, and our friends as they do too. Time passes, life changes, and it's important to move with the onward flow.

10 comments:

  1. When I look back on the past few years, I know I have changed, and for me its been for the better. My confidence has grown and my anxiety is getting smaller day by day, it's great. Its unsettling at times, especially when you look back and realise the people who are now missing from your life, but 'onwards and upwards' as they say. I really like the way you've written this (to come back to your post), you're really descriptive and this had such a nice, flowing feel to it. I'm glad you're beginning to embrace the change, and hope you continue to grow into an even more incredible version of yourself :)

    ~Gail www.sherbet-aurora.co.uk

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    1. I'm so glad to hear that your anxiety is getting better and you're growing in confidence Gail, you have such a positive attitude. Thank you for your lovely comment xxx

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  2. Such a beautiful picture! A really inspiring post(:

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  3. I really loved reading this post! Very inspiring! xThe Perks Of Meg

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    1. Thank you Meg, I really appreciate your comment :) xx

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  4. Love this post. So much has changed in my life in a short period of time which made me realise that things change and we just have to accept it.

    Sempiternal Adventures

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    1. Thank you so much your comment Tshegofatso, I'm glad you like the post :) xx

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  5. Wow. This is amazing.
    I've read quite a few of reflective posts with the New Year and all, but this one is my favorite so far.

    I love your writing style, and you seem to always have something interesting to say.
    Not to mention the beautiful pictures you take.

    I'm going to be a bit creepy now and wish I was friends with you in real life.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

    https://anasdomain.wordpress.com/ .

    Lots of love,
    Ana

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  6. Thank you Ana, you've made me so happy with your compliments. It thrills me that you enjoy my writing and my posts, I'm sure we could be friends :)

    Liza xx

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